Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Feeling Poetic & Sad

Some days I want to know my whole life
hasn't been a waste

Some days I want to see all my books
around me again

Some days I want to know I won't be
humiliated by my darkest secrets
or weep openly

Some days I want to feel less paranoid
than I do now

And some days I want to be so honest
the glare makes others step back
and see their own reflection

Right now I feel weak

Powerless

Impotent

Worthless, like a failure.

My dreams seem so damned dead

My life feels worthless and used

My thoughts are recycled because I
can't process anything new

And some days I want a voice to
stroke my hair

To tell me I am beautiful despite my inner
and outer
ugliness

And to love me

As much as I could love them, secrets
and all.

Some day just hasn't come yet ...

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