Just a Sub

Today I got kicked in the balls.  I went to an 80+ year old wombat asking for grades for a few students new to the class I was watching & teaching for the 4 week stint I was doing.  When she asked why, I told her I was going to insert grades for the teacher.

She looked at me puzzled, and thus our conversation began: "But why Mr. G?"

I replied, "I'm in the room long-term.  Currently I'm the teacher of record."

The wombat said, "No.  You're not.  You're only a substitute.  You shouldn't ever have access to GradeBook."

I was taken slightly aghast, thinking of all the jobs I've done in the last few years since I received my degree for the field of education.  I KNOW how to use the systems, passwords, input grades, and teach and create lessons.

She looked at me as if I fell off the back of the goddamned work truck with a garden-hose and shitkicker boots ready to tend the cows and mow lawns, instead of teaching to the mind and intellect.  I felt low, like maybe I didn't belong there.

So I smiled, not wanting to argue or to put the teacher in a spot of trouble, and said, "I'm sorry.  I'll just make sure she gets her grades on a spreadsheet so she can input them herself."

Suddenly she didn't look like someone's genteel granny, but an acient, evil shark, smiling as she took me down a peg, telling me, "The only teacher of record is Mrs. X~, who's a certified teacher, and you're only a sub."

I smiled again, saying, "Thank you" and promised to get all this to the teacher immediately.  Then I left, not saying another thing about my job, my place, or even thinking anything but 'I am not paid enough for this bullshit.'

I am not paid enough for this bullshit.  I get a measly $75 bucks a day, no health and I am living hand-to-mouth, hoping and trying for the future of my dreams.  From now on I should be 'just a substitute', never checking on the In-school suspension teacher, helping with crowd control, working with kids to keep standards high, or even teaching.  For this kind of money teachers should have the work ready, not a vague concept of what they want me to teach.  I teach using PowerPoint, internet lessons, art, music and open discussions and conversations.  I can take grades, keep secrets, and stop a fight.

So why should I?  Honestly, I made a little less as a bar bouncer, and could probably get a few blowjobs of appreciation from young strippers.  Maybe a bonus menage-a-trios for Christmas, more-so than nagging and niggling and idiocy.

I AM unhappy teaching right now, simply because I don't have a certification, and I keep failing my test by 2 point.  If I want to have my test rescored by hand, then TEA will do it for $150 (whereas the test cost $175) thus I am putting in an application with the local Catholic church, where hopefully my lack of certification will not hinder me from getting a job that will pay the bills and keep me a little happier.

But no girls school, too much wicked imagination swimming with pervy ideas to work there.  ~lmao!~

Don't go to the link of you're squeamish of wickedness.  ~wink, wink!~

And no, I shan't be advertising this side of my brain to anyone.   But we'll see what happens next.

Just a sub?  Fuck no.

More than some people can imagine ... hell yeah!