It's Probably Me

It's Probably Me Lyrics
Artist: Sting
Album: Ten Summoner's Tale


If the night turned cold and the stars looked down
And you hug yourself on the cold cold ground
You wake the morning in a stranger's coat
No one would you see
You ask yourself who'd watch for me
My only friend who could it be
It's hard to say it
I hate to say it but it's probably me

When you belly's empty and the hunger's so real
And you're too proud to beg and too dumb to steal
You search the city for your only friend
No one would you see
You ask yourself, who could it be
A solitary voice to speak out and set you free
I gate to say it
I gate to say it, but it's probably me

You're not the easiest person I ever got to know
And it's hard for us both to let our feelings show
Some would say I should let you go your way
You'll only make me cry
If there's one guy, just one guy
Who'd lay down his life for you and die
It's hard to say it
It's hard to say it, but it's probably me

When the world's gone crazy and it makes no sense
There's only one voice that comes to your defence
The jury's out and your eyes search the room
And one friendly face is all you need to see
If there's one guy, just one guy
Who'd lay down his life for you and die
It's hard to say it
I hate to say it, but it's probably me
I hate to say it
I hate to say it, but it's probably me


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Tonight ... I almost held the gate open to let my big blonde labrador retriever go wander off into the night. As I hooked her leash I wondered, "Do I love her if I let her go free or do I love her by trucking through all the feelings I have and the self-loathing I imposed to care for her?"

I'm scared of my feelings ... I'm scared of the Truth inside me: that there IS no truth inside me.

That I am a vacuum, empty & devoid of anything intrinsic or human, and I am nothing more than floating debris now and forever.

Or ... I'm just scared of looking inside me.

The scumbag.

The liar.

The backstabber.

The racist & pervert, deviate and jackass.

The degenerate.

All he needs to do is wander away.

- wander away.

~ j ~