Southwest Side Story

Somewhere lyrics

TONY
There's a place for us
Somewhere a place for us
Peace and quiet and open air
Wait for us
Somewhere
MARIA
There's a time for us
Some day a time for us
Time together
With time to spare
Time to look
Time to care
Someday
TONY
Somewhere
We'll find a new way of living
MARIA
We'll find a way of forgiving
Somewhere
TONY & MARIA
There's a place for us
A time and place for us
Hold my hand
And we're halfway there
Hold my hand
And I'll take you there
Somehow
Someday
Somewhere



Have you ever seen West Side Story? It's the Romeo & Juliet of the '50's, and it's a musical set in the slums of New York (or possibly New Jersey) about a boy & a girl from rival families who end up falling in love.

I felt the same way about someone special to me; in the end of the story Maria is singing the lyrics to Tony's body after he is killed by the gang members in her family. She loses him; he's lost to her and it's over.

Heartbreak all over.

I lost someone special to me today. She's gone and I can't weep about it any longer. She gave me more than I can imagine or have hoped for so I am eternally grateful.



I shall miss her; my heart will heal eventually as she gave me more than I could have ever hoped for in my life. She gave me an adventure.

She was & is my adventure, my angel, my love ... and I shan't haunt her or make her ever feel bad.

Maria

The most beautiful sound I ever heard
All the beautiful sounds of the world in a single word
Maria
I just met a girl named Maria
And suddenly that name
Will never be the same
To me
Maria
I just kissed a girl named Maria
And suddenly I found
How wonderful a sound
Can be
Maria
Say it loud and there's music playing
Say it soft and it's almost like praying
Maria
I'll never stop saying
Maria
Maria, Maria...Maria
Say it loud and there's music playing
Say it soft and it's almost like praying
Maria
I'll never stop saying
MariaThe most beautiful sound I ever heard
Maria

Goodbye my Angel ... my lover ... my friend.

Blessings be on your life and your hopes & dreams.

I wish I could have been one of them.

Always,




Julian

Generator Still Running

A little less afare24get, a little more action please.

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Copied from the Dying-Yahoo-360

Yahoo is closing their 360-blog site tomorrow. I lost (or was purged) of all my entries due to complaints. Personally I feel that the "Freedom of Speech" is overrated; nothing is ever free. Someone always pays the price.

Yahoo made me feel like less of a human being and I had to scavage my remaining entries from a site I was using as a back-up before I came to Blogger. I had worked so hard to make my entries as interesting as possible, and as honest as possible. It was such a waste.

I wish I could have found them again. There were some wonderful entry replies from my friends & lovers that I'll never see or feel again.

It breaks my heart.

This was my last Yahoo 360 blog entry below from the day I found my account deleted and my words all scatted like sand on the beach. I cried for an hour of the loss of my words, and I hope and pray these ones won't be purged or destroyed any time soon.

I think we're becoming a less-literate society. Children write in net-speak, using homonyms to say what they should write out; teachers tolerate it because it's going to be passable and no real loss to the misery that is teaching, and I can't help but to be sad that words are less valued than the ideas.

Anyway ... I vent because 42 is around the corner and nothing has happened. Nothing real. Nothing good and it makes me sad. It makes me drink and it makes me want to die but I can't. I just fucking can't - I'm too wrapped in personal shame & guilt to do that to my family.

But maybe ... just maybe there's a way to go around it all.

Maybe there's a way to be happy & chase my dreams and enjoy my life.

Maybe.

Or maybe not.

I'll learn something later.

Blessings,




Julian

p.s. "I doubled the image just in case Yahoo drops the account (with the rest of them) and I lose the image link."

*****

Crying Today

Finals are a little under 24 hours away.

Yahoo killed my old account ... I'm crushed as I loved what I wrote there. And I hadn't had a chance to move my newest items to my Multiply account ...

I hope my friends find me - I really need them.

Waaahhhh!

Julian

originally posted - May 12, 2008

Come What May

"Jealousy will drive you mad." ~ said aloud before the "Roxanne' tango in Moulin Rouge.




Lyrics | Ewan McGregor / Nicole Kidman - Come What May lyrics

http://www.stlyrics.com/m/moulinrouge.htm - The whole Moulin Rogue soundtrack

"I don't know what will happen in my life as I am getting closer to 42 in a few days; I don't want to be a teacher and I don't want to live in Texas."

This has never been the life I sought or dreamt of - I have to make a decision soon.

I am sad and I am wondering why I am staying here so often, and why I am crying into the Heineken on my desk. I miss someone terribly, and need her in my life. I doubt I am just affected or infatuated, but I need her for me ... with me ... as a part of me again.

I've been waiting for 'the thunderbolt' to strike me again since 1995. And it's hit me. It's hit me harder than I could have ever imagined. It's not just lust, but something deep inside me and I can't fight it in any way. I need it more than I could have ever imagined in my heart & soul, and she's inflamed me with something like joy and desire.

I have to choose soon. I've never been mutually chosen. I was picked or settled on, and that can't be my life any longer, my friends.

~lol!~

I write this with no real posters or readers and I spill my desires and fears, and the ONLY time someone read it they ran screaming into the night after a moment of cybersex, as if THIS were all there were to me.

I want someone to want me as much as I want them - that's my pain.

That's 'the Thunderbolt'.



That's what I wanted for so long, and it's never happened. I'm weeping now, wishing I could find some way to make my dreams come true. As I grow older I fear they won't and I'll die mediocre. A nothing with all my dreams fading & crumbling like the papers of my old journals.

I have no fuckin' clue what's gonna happen next.

[last lines]
Christian: [voiceover and typing] Days turned into weeks, weeks turned into months. And then, one not-so-very special day, I went to my typewriter, I sat down, and I wrote our story. A story about a time, a story about a place, a story about the people. But above all things, a story about love. A love that will live forever. The End.

Christian: [voiceover, singing] The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.

I have to write my stories ... if not I've wasted my life.

I have to chase my dreams, or I'll die of a broken heart.

Always,



Julian

"Come what may ... I will always love you, until my dying day" - Satine; said at the end of the Roxanne lyrics.

A Funny Website - Orsm.net

I like humor, and I like pornography, and I can find them all both at this particular site: orsm.net. I think that there are lots of places that have a little of each, but they can be found more often here and I find some amazingly hilarious things, and the videos are quite hot.

~omg!~ They're SO damned hot I can hardly keep myself contained with the use of my hands versus the typing I need to do to obtain my dreams but ... well, a lapse is a lapse, and I can occasionally use the break and the orgasm.

Blessings,



Julian

Happy 7th of July

Good morning readers!

Hope you've all had an amazing 4th of July friends!

Mine blew chunks with blood so ... eeuwww!

I shan't detail it but needless to say it was rotten, dull and excruciating.

Hope we can keep on writing and working & being happy.



Blessings,



Julian

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