By The Way ...

Happy Birthday to Me ... Happy Birthday to Me ... Happy Birthday dear Julian ... Happy Birthday to Meeeeeeeeee!!!

I turned 42 on July 13 ... Monday. Sadly I also got a bit of a crushing from someone I love very dearly.

I wish she were still in my life. I'd do anything to get her back - maybe even one grand gesture this fall. One last chance - she amazed and delighted me so very much!

I had my heart crushed a little and I made a Scribd webpage where I can write something or create something for other writers.

It's linked here & on the page so I am going to show something more than my lewd perverted side.

Blessings & Joy,

Julian

What's Love Got To Do With It?

"Maybe one day this will make me a happy marriage. I hope ... " ~ Julian



In love? It's not enough to keep a marriage, study finds.

Tue Jul 14, 6:04 am ET SYDNEY (Reuters Life!)

Living happily ever after needn't only be for fairy tales. Australian researchers have identified what it takes to keep a couple together, and it's a lot more than just being in love.

A couple's age, previous relationships and even whether they smoke or not are factors that influence whether their marriage is going to last, according to a study by researchers from the Australian National University.

The study, entitled "What's Love Got to Do With It," tracked nearly 2,500 couples -- married or living together -- from 2001 to 2007 to identify factors associated with those who remained together compared with those who divorced or separated.

It found that a husband who is nine or more years older than his wife is twice as likely to get divorced, as are husbands who get married before they turn 25.

Children also influence the longevity of a marriage or relationship, with one-fifth of couples who have kids before marriage -- either from a previous relationship or in the same relationship -- having separated compared to just nine percent of couples without children born before marriage.

Women who want children much more than their partners are also more likely to get a divorce.

A couple's parents also have a role to play in their own relationship, with the study showing some 16 percent of men and women whose parents ever separated or divorced experienced marital separation themselves compared to 10 percent for those whose parents did not separate.

Also, partners who are on their second or third marriage are 90 percent more likely to separate than spouses who are both in their first marriage.

Not surprisingly, money also plays a role, with up to 16 percent of respondents who indicated they were poor or where the husband -- not the wife -- was unemployed saying they had separated, compared with only nine percent of couples with healthy finances.

And couples where one partner, and not the other, smokes are also more likely to have a relationship that ends in failure.

Factors found to not significantly affect separation risk included the number and age of children born to a married couple, the wife's employment status and the number of years the couple had been employed.

The study was jointly written by Dr Rebecca Kippen and Professor Bruce Chapman from The Australian National University, and Dr Peng Yu from the Department of Families, Housing, Community Services and Indigenous Affairs.

(Writing by Miral Fahmy; Editing by Nick Macfie)

The Girl Can't Help It

Girl Can't Help It lyrics - (Steve Perry/Jonathan Cain/Neal Schon)

If he could hold her so clse in his arms again

If she could show him

The letter her heart forgot to send, why

They're livin' dreams on their own

Ooh they'll never stop running

CHORUS

The girl can't help it, she needs more

He hasn't found what he's lookin' for

They're still standing in the rain

He can't help it and she's just that way

And when he calls her

She tells him that she still cares

Under the moonlight

He wonders why she can't be there...why

Why do they go on alone

When they're missin' each other

CHORUSOoh...there's a fire in his eyes for you

(Don't you know she still cries)

Ooh...do you know she still cries for you

(Fire)

Ooh...there's a fire in his eyes for you

(Ooh...there's a fire)

Ooh...do you know she still cries for you

(Oh nothing stands between love and you)

Just dealin' with my loss of my angel. She will be the lust I cannot have & do miss the most.

Always,

Julian

Southwest Side Story

Somewhere lyrics

TONY
There's a place for us
Somewhere a place for us
Peace and quiet and open air
Wait for us
Somewhere
MARIA
There's a time for us
Some day a time for us
Time together
With time to spare
Time to look
Time to care
Someday
TONY
Somewhere
We'll find a new way of living
MARIA
We'll find a way of forgiving
Somewhere
TONY & MARIA
There's a place for us
A time and place for us
Hold my hand
And we're halfway there
Hold my hand
And I'll take you there
Somehow
Someday
Somewhere



Have you ever seen West Side Story? It's the Romeo & Juliet of the '50's, and it's a musical set in the slums of New York (or possibly New Jersey) about a boy & a girl from rival families who end up falling in love.

I felt the same way about someone special to me; in the end of the story Maria is singing the lyrics to Tony's body after he is killed by the gang members in her family. She loses him; he's lost to her and it's over.

Heartbreak all over.

I lost someone special to me today. She's gone and I can't weep about it any longer. She gave me more than I can imagine or have hoped for so I am eternally grateful.



I shall miss her; my heart will heal eventually as she gave me more than I could have ever hoped for in my life. She gave me an adventure.

She was & is my adventure, my angel, my love ... and I shan't haunt her or make her ever feel bad.

Maria

The most beautiful sound I ever heard
All the beautiful sounds of the world in a single word
Maria
I just met a girl named Maria
And suddenly that name
Will never be the same
To me
Maria
I just kissed a girl named Maria
And suddenly I found
How wonderful a sound
Can be
Maria
Say it loud and there's music playing
Say it soft and it's almost like praying
Maria
I'll never stop saying
Maria
Maria, Maria...Maria
Say it loud and there's music playing
Say it soft and it's almost like praying
Maria
I'll never stop saying
MariaThe most beautiful sound I ever heard
Maria

Goodbye my Angel ... my lover ... my friend.

Blessings be on your life and your hopes & dreams.

I wish I could have been one of them.

Always,




Julian

Generator Still Running

A little less afare24get, a little more action please.

Which song was this lyric from?

Get your own lyrics:

Copied from the Dying-Yahoo-360

Yahoo is closing their 360-blog site tomorrow. I lost (or was purged) of all my entries due to complaints. Personally I feel that the "Freedom of Speech" is overrated; nothing is ever free. Someone always pays the price.

Yahoo made me feel like less of a human being and I had to scavage my remaining entries from a site I was using as a back-up before I came to Blogger. I had worked so hard to make my entries as interesting as possible, and as honest as possible. It was such a waste.

I wish I could have found them again. There were some wonderful entry replies from my friends & lovers that I'll never see or feel again.

It breaks my heart.

This was my last Yahoo 360 blog entry below from the day I found my account deleted and my words all scatted like sand on the beach. I cried for an hour of the loss of my words, and I hope and pray these ones won't be purged or destroyed any time soon.

I think we're becoming a less-literate society. Children write in net-speak, using homonyms to say what they should write out; teachers tolerate it because it's going to be passable and no real loss to the misery that is teaching, and I can't help but to be sad that words are less valued than the ideas.

Anyway ... I vent because 42 is around the corner and nothing has happened. Nothing real. Nothing good and it makes me sad. It makes me drink and it makes me want to die but I can't. I just fucking can't - I'm too wrapped in personal shame & guilt to do that to my family.

But maybe ... just maybe there's a way to go around it all.

Maybe there's a way to be happy & chase my dreams and enjoy my life.

Maybe.

Or maybe not.

I'll learn something later.

Blessings,




Julian

p.s. "I doubled the image just in case Yahoo drops the account (with the rest of them) and I lose the image link."

*****

Crying Today

Finals are a little under 24 hours away.

Yahoo killed my old account ... I'm crushed as I loved what I wrote there. And I hadn't had a chance to move my newest items to my Multiply account ...

I hope my friends find me - I really need them.

Waaahhhh!

Julian

originally posted - May 12, 2008