Freefalling

 I'm freefalling

I'm not sure where I'll land

Calamity catastrophe chaos cremation

What will be my end

Or will this be a beginning

Customizing

 I do & don't feel the same as I once was or hoped to be. But life is evolution and contradiction, destruction and mayhem and joy and fear.

And I gotta see what happens next.

The Pandemic is still big, as is K-pop, President Biden & the Trumps causing mischief.

I ran into someone special in my life. She's been special a long time.

I hope she's smiling & not mortified.

First story going on Smashword in 2021. Second in February.

If you know a doctor or nurse, let them know you love their sacrifice and thank them or pray for them. I knew a nurse, and I pray she's doing well. She was a wonderful person and made life better, and with CoVid-19 the future is completely unknown.

I know someone with CoVid-19.

I don't know what will happen to him. He could die, or recover without problems. Or he could recover with complications.

People care for him.

All I can do is pray for him and thank those doing something.

And the one in my past.

Thank you.

I hope you're doing well.

God Bless You.

Dystopian Times

With CoVid 19 we're living in Dystopian times, people. Be safe, be aware, and most of all ...

Be Kind.

Love you all.

Latest story at Literotica ... Just for You ... HERE

More Silliness

Gotta Come Back More Often

Let's be bad again.

Let's be really ... really bad again.

Hating Meetings

Can you love & hate something at the same time? 

I'm being fucking called down for some goddamned meeting with my principal and some other teachers meaning I've offended some kid or a parent that doesn't know their kid is an asshole.

Some days you love something so much it breaks your heart. Sometimes you break your own heart on the misery of this bureaucratic bullshit.

Fucking fuck it!

Fuck that!

 

I'm still trying to survive. If you've read this blog you know what I've done, what I've felt and what keeps me afloat now.

I'm not slitting my wrist if my meeting goes south and they fucking fire me.

Fuck this! I could be paranoid and just anxious from previous experiences ... but that's me.

Sorry. Worry until there's nothing left to worry about.

Then I'll let the anger go.

Can't sleep due to the fear.