I am the Law! ~roflmao!~

I am not the law actually, but I am the law enforcement teacher.  What that is I don't really know but after my rousing success with the Hottentots last year I guess I got a good reputation for being able to teach, handle technology, and lesson plans of my own accord.

So the local high school asked me to come in for the first 5 weeks of school, teaching law enforcement as a class more than likely teaching the Constitution and how laws are affected by it.  I'm sure there's a manual, a series of PowerPoint slide/presentations to use for note taking, and a time when I'll have to administer test.  I have a calendar to track all this and grades.

The original teacher is out on some medical situation that noone has elaborated about to me ... yet.

After that a few teachers are already trying to book me for certain phases in their upcoming year.  Some are having babies, and need maternity leave, thus putting me in for 5-6 weeks at a time.

And I'll be taking my certification test again on September 24, 2011.

I don't know what to expect with this class.  It's a high-school electives class; they're all teenagers; they're all sure they know more than anyone else in the world.  I guess I'll have to see what I see myself being for them:  Judge Dredd, or the Lawgiver.

Thanks for listening everyone.

Take care.

~ j ~

500+ blogs ALREADY??!!

it's kinda hard to believe that with my life going to pot as it has, there are still loyal readers waiting to see what mischief or success happens next, and for that I thank you.

Although this is posting # 502, I was surprised that I've gone so far. Yes, I am yammering constantly about my lack of success and love, but I also know that you have to go far to know the adventure of life.

"It's not the destination, it's the journey."

So here's to the first 502 as of today, and to another 500 soon.

Thanks for listening.

♥

~ j ~

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A Few of my favorite songs

I grew up with music. My parents always had it on playing on stations in English, Spanish and those for talk radio (bilingual of course, so we could get our prayers in too.) but I could never make music.

I love singing. I love that someone sang to me once; that feeling can't be replaced. I like church simply for the music, and I love plays when they're musicals such as Hair, the Phantom of the Opera, Miss Saigon, and so many others that can't be named or listed at this time.

So here's a few for tonight. Enjoy.

♥

*****

Al Martino - "To Each His Own"

A rose must remain with the sun and the rain
Or its lovely promise won't come true
To each his own, to each his own
And my own is you

What good is a song if the words don't belong
And a dream must be a dream for two
No good alone to each his own
For me there's you

If a flame is to grow there must be a glow
To open each door there's a key
I need you I know, I can't let you go
Your touch means too much to me

Two lips must insist on two more to be kissed
Or they'll never know what love can do
To each his own, I've found my own
One and only you

A rose must remain with the sun and the rain
Or its lovely promise won't come true
To each his own, I've found my own
One and only you


©PARAMOUNT MUSIC CORP

Lyrics found here

44

Happy Birthday to Me

It’s July 16, 2011, and I have been 44 years old for 3 days now.  A friend of mine is offering to buy me a website for my birthday so I can launch my dubious career as an erotic writer.  He’s hoping it will launch me into a sexual stratosphere with writers like Diablo Cody, who is now writing other things such as movie screenplays and books.

I am seriously thinking about it, and I am thinking hard regarding this idea.

This past Spring a friend & fellow blogger sent me some art supplies, which was a super-cool jump start to my feelings.  I am working hard not to let her (or anyone else who’s been encouraging) or myself down.  I’ve been studying for the latest test for certification, which is 4-8 generalist, meaning I’d be teaching the Hottentots, not the Mighty Mites, nor the big kids.  The ones in the middle, which is where I was 90% of last year, would be the next class/group I would teach.  I’ve also got a little anxiety about testing, since I know I can be nervous an fuck up badly, screwing up my future and paying for nothing.  I’ve blown (since ’09) $350 taking test.

I just want it to be done.

I just want to move on.

(Pause)

A friend of mine recently told me that I am a successful teacher, a good teacher, and that may be my place in life.

In my heart of hearts I am fighting it, and I don’t want to continue on this path.

I’ve been teaching for 15 years, in some capacity, and it truly doesn’t make me happy.

I’d like to be like Gaughin, leaving for Tahiti, painting tropical beauties, and living a life of solitude and quiet, but that’s not in the cards.

I have to say thank you for those who’ve gone out of their way to remind me I am a worthwhile human being, making me smile with little courtesies and warmth, showing me that I can be someone who means something to others.  All I need to do is believe it myself.

Thank you all for making my birthday a wonderful smile.

Blessings & Love,

~ j ~

p.s. “My mother was just cleared of her cancer treatments.  We haven’t discussed remission, continuing treatments or anything else.  There’s just a lot of tears and taking in all that this year has been emotionally for all of us.  Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your prayers, support and good thoughts.  They are all appreciated.”

Being a Cancer

Honestly, I never thought I'd tell something this personal on-line, but I need to vent, and I don't keep a lot bottled-up when I am blogging; and aside from my journals I need to keep sane with my mediocre life.

Exhale, then write.

Right now I am in the phase of Cancer in my life, per this year, and I am trying to come to terms with my mother having it.

The doctors have given her a 85-90% clearance, and honestly, this is the first I have spoken of it outside my family.  I shan't say much more but needless to day I am thinking harder about my own life, shortcomings and sadness.

I see the cancer I've been to others, and to myself, lowering my personal esteem and drying out my dreams to fold them away in my journals.

So my mornings are sketches, trying to stay off-line, and missing a LOT of people, but hopefully repaying them with something beautiful.

I gotta keep trying, right?

My mother has always been supportive of any of my dreams no matter how odd, bizarre or where they've taken me.  In a year I need to have a prostate check, and see where I am, since there are some males with some hereditary disease which I'll need to be aware of for the future.

But the future is now isn't it?

Hopefully soon ...

Thanks for listening.

If you've ever been a hacker or pirate WATCH OUT!!

 Reference here

LulzSec wages war with Anonymous and 4Chan, releases 62,000 logins

The Internet underground has erupted in civil war, with hacker groups LulzSec and Anonymous facing off in a DDoS battle. Oh, and your most precious online accounts might also be at risk. Just FYI...

The rascally hackers of Lulz Security have unleashed pure havoc on the entire Internet today with the release of 62,000 email-password combos that serve as the login credentials for, well, we’re not exactly sure — the group, better known as LulzSec, won’t say explicitly. But so far Twitter users have reported hacked Gmail, PayPal, Facebook, Hotmail and Twitter accounts related to the stolen data, so it appears that nothing’s safe if you’re unlucky enough to have made the list.


The lulz seem to be going both ways with this one: good and nauseatingly bad. While at least one user reports having received an email chocked full of child pornography, others have gotten (un-earned) super-boosts to their World of Warcraft accounts (at the expense of someone else, of course). All-in-all, it would seem LulzSec’s shenanigans are going precisely according to plan.


In addition to the leak, LulzSec has begun to take shots at an unlikely target: 4Chan.org and its infamous /b/ message board. 4Chan is famously the original home of another hacker group, Anonymous, and is the source of a wide variety of popular Internet memes, like LolCats and Rick Rolling.


According to VentureBeat, the moves against 4Chan began after LulzSec kicked-off a “DDoS party” on a variety of websites and game servers popular with gamers, including that of EVE Online, League of Legends and Minecraft, all of which faced outages or major slow-downs because of the flood of malicious traffic.


Visitors to 4Chan’s /v/ imageboard, whose users focus on video games, caught wind of the attacks, and began their own DDoS campaign against anything related to LulzSec.
Today, LulzSec continued the civil war of the online underground with a series of tweets meant to provoke 4Chan visitors.


“Everybody visit this cool and edgy imageboard, they love new members!” wrote LulzSec on its 150,000-follower-strong Twitter feed, with a link to /b/. “Ask them how to triforce and how to become legion.”  LulzSec followed this up with a variety of other tweets drawing attention to /b/, with suggestions for how to annoy its regular users.


It may seem odd to some that LulzSec would hit so close to Anonymous’ home, seeing as they are both hacker groups that have hit similar targets. (Or, in the case of Sony, the same target.) But LulzSec has consistently denied any relation to Anonymous. And now, it seems, the two groups are at war.


“We are the concentrated success of 2005 /b/, being ‘hunted’ by the 2011 furry horde. Challenge accepted, losers,” Anonymous posted to its Twitter account.
At the beginning of this writting, 4Chan either failed to load or loaded extremely slowly, a sign that a DDoS attack was underway. By the the time of publication, the site was running smoothly.

Link Here