Monday's child is fair of face.
Tuesday's child is full of grace.
Wednesday's child is full of woe.
Thursday's child has far to go.
Friday's child is loving and giving.
Saturday's child works hard for a living,
But the child who is born on the Sabbath Day
Is bonny and blithe and good and gay.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Monday's_Child
I am not full of grace. Shit maybe but not grace. And I know the highschoolers trudging back from their holiday aren't going to feel anything but contempt with the school they're imprisoned within for 8+ hours a day. I know I will as this could be my future.
Tuesday's child is full of grace.
Wednesday's child is full of woe.
Thursday's child has far to go.
Friday's child is loving and giving.
Saturday's child works hard for a living,
But the child who is born on the Sabbath Day
Is bonny and blithe and good and gay.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Monday's_Child
I am not full of grace. Shit maybe but not grace. And I know the highschoolers trudging back from their holiday aren't going to feel anything but contempt with the school they're imprisoned within for 8+ hours a day. I know I will as this could be my future.
And that saddens me.
Like with the telemarketting job, I KNOW this is nothing I want to do in any way, and I can't help but to wish it would be over very fuckin' soon. I HATE, and I do mean to use that word this morning as I am in a pickle of a jam. The fuckin' shithall of a university hasn't PLACED me in a fuckin' schedule on the electronic page for my classes! WITHOUT THAT I can't get my student loan, and they're only doing them on-line now so I am totally FUCKED!!! I HATE SCHOOL!
I HATE TEACHING!! I HATE CLASSROOMS!! I HATE THE CONFINING SPACES AND THE KIDS THAT I CAN'T FUCKING KILL WITH MY BARE HANDS OR STRANGLE OR MUTILATE AND CRUSH AND RUIN!!!
I AM going to be a Bad Teacher. For once it'll be the teacher who goes on a killing spree, knocking off pretend thugs left and right, banging young whores in the ass & making them
drink his cum before capping them too! A little necrophelia never hurt anyone. ~roflmao!~
A lot of people can look & say that teaching isn't a job but it is a vocation, like the priesthood or becoming a sister/nun. You're supposed to be called to this decision, and I am having the feeling I am not made for this life.
Teachers are never treated with the luxury, respect or the joy they deserve. They are seen as less-than-professional when they take summers off, and relax. But does ANY parent make the teachers' job any easier for them? Do they take away the childs' cell phone, or make them dress appropriately, or want them to be respectful?! Shit, I've had conferences when the parents show up in flip-flops, tank tops and shorts, looking like they stepped out of the fuckin' bathroom.
AND DON'T TALK TO ME ABOUT POVERTY! My father may have not had the money for designer clothes or worked a white-collar job, but he had dignity, and respect for teachers, and cared for their welfare, and would take time off from work just to cook for them. He's a good man and for him to see the way the schools are now is sad; I'd be ashamed to introduce him to my students. I would barely let any of my friends see me at work on campus.
Between the teachers & the lack of respect is one thing: parents.
It takes a license to drive, a background check to buy a gun, and a credit check to rent and apartment, but NOTHING is required to have children. The assholes giving us the most problems are the ones who had fucked-up lives and can't live up to the expectations that the World expects. They're on the government tit, welfare and Lone Star cards for their food and malt liquor.
And like the BANKS and CAR COMPANIES I am paying for that shit!!
Personally I think they should all burn in fuckin' HELL!!! Some government bigwigs lost over $70 billion dollars. "That's nine zeroes son!" They say they can't track where the money went, BUT if you're a teacher in Texas, in a public school, then you HAVE TO HAVE your students pass the TAKS or it's your ass.
Period. No waiting, maybe some mentoring, but you're ass is on the line.
Fuck this bullshit!!
I shall complete my goddamned student-teaching, and I shall finish my time in the public schools.
I shall graduate ... and maybe leave Texas.
After all I may as well be closer to the Dream Factory of Hollywood and maybe finally I can be a professional writer. God help me if I still want to be a teacher after that move to California.
I know that I shall be looking for a job in the church, so I can actually teach and not have to put up with the misery that IS TAKS! Fuck that!
Fuck them, fuck this ... and fuck it all.
If take a teaching job my dreams are over. Period, and I can't stand that idea. My dreams have been dying since they came to the sky ... why can't they flourish?
Why can't I bloom?
Where's my rainbow? Has my depravity ruined my life? Is this my self-actualization?
Am I going to die without affecting change in the world?
Or was it never meant to be?
Maybe I was born as fodder, and need to see that before venturing any further in life.
But, that's not for my chance to committ suicide; just to change.
Fuck it - it's Satuday.
Cartoons & some eggs.
Figure it out later.
~ j ~
http://listverse.com/crime/top-10-evil-children/ - Listed Top 10 Evil Children
http://www.ubersite.com/m/54417 - Bad children; gotta read this story
http://www.narcissisticabuse.com/evil.html - Evil children & abusers & people
http://www.jimloy.com/math/billion.htm - number of Zeroes in number status
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rote_learning - There is nothing wrong with this; they can't paint an abstract when they don't know how to hold a brush or use a color palette.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Self-actualization - Have I swallowed what Maslow was discussing all along or am I just bitching?
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Maslow%27s_hierarchy_of_needs - Why am I not the pyramid?
