Feeling Ugly

I don't know why but I've been feeling ugly.  Maybe it's the lack of attention I get, or maybe it's the amount I want out of the world.

Either way I feel ugly ...

More later on this week.

Blessings,

Julian

Missing You

There's someone I miss ... still.

I'm trying very hard to forget.

I doubt I ever will, and I'm trying to move out of my old ideas and funk.

All I can do is try & hope.

Adios!

Rain Comes

Looks like San Antonio is gonna be hit & I have a fuckin' cardboard window.  But my landlord is a jerk so I won't complain but I'll look harder into leaving ASAP!

Cheesy Sarcasm from Kid Rock

Listen to the message very carefully.

Blessings,



Jules

Just Tired

Happy Up-coming Labor Day Everyone.

I'm unhappy since it looks as if my client bailed out on me so I am going to ask a friend of mine to be my patron in my endeavors of art.

Few people make a living at art - I am trying.  I am having trouble writing, and can't finish or get past my paragraphs, a certain length or ideas seem trite or awful.

But maybe I'm too self-critical.

My life stinks, and I have to be the one to bathe it and clean it and make it better than before.

Adios.

~ j ~

I Wish I Could Make A Woman Feel Like This

Barbra Streisand - The way he makes me feel lyrics

My Funk

I'm not feeling happy.  I'm not feeling like me, or loved, or wanted.

 

Maybe I don't know what I want any more ... maybe I want more than I've ever deserved or could handle.

Maybe my dreams were just impulses, and I need to control them, and to save myself.

Maybe when the clock runs out, so should this blog.

~ fuck! ~

Too many maybe's, and I don't know which path to take any longer.

Maybe I need to hide.

Maybe ...

-ttyl-